My Thoughts During This Season

So last week on my Instagram stories I shared how up and down my emotions have been the past few weeks. We are really living through an epidemic! Seriously, just let that sink in for a second. Not only that, but there has also been an uproar on the police brutality and racism in America and the UK as with other countries are taking a stand for it! And so honestly, I am just PRAYING for a change. I just know a change is truly coming…

There are so many different aspects and angles to how my mind is grasping this whole situation. There is a positive outlook and then there is, of course, the negative thoughts that can sometimes cloud my brain. In Deuteronomy 7:9 it reminds us that we should know therefore that the LORD your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love Him and keep His commandments, to a thousand generations and that is what I am going to lean on always.

Positives

  1. This is definitely a great time to refocus on me physically, mentally and spiritually. We may be going through so much but I truly believe God would not put us through anything we can not handle & with it is important to make the best of this season!
  1. Spending more time in the word. Reading the Bible more, turning to the bible for inspiration and motivation is super enriching and prayer journaling as I always feel like my mind is in a better place when I am focusing on building my relationship with God.
  1. Staying connected with the outside world. To be honest, it will always be a work in progress. I have always spoken highly about keeping a good balance of social media and the real world. Your girl is really trying. I have made sure that I am not staying isolated from my friends and family and trying to stay active as I can on social media.
  2. Having time to work on things behind the scenes. I know it probably is not great me not giving too much away but I can not wait to sure what I have been working on and all will be revealed soon enough!

I have been able to grow in spiritual maturity, lose a few pounds and spend more time focusing on my health and goals. So that is all good!

Negatives

Alright, so then there is obviously the negative side of my brain that brings all the bad and unwanted thoughts in at the worst times. I will keep it all the way real… I can be an overthinker and more than ever during this season I have the opportunity to be alone with my thoughts. It is so easy to stay in a negative space and it is important to be intentional. A lot of times when I feel like this, I turn to the Bible or my circle. It always helps!

I came across the scripture that talks about how if we are even upon epidemic, we must repent our sins and He will return our land to us. In the end, we really just have to do our part but that seems so far out of reach when people, instead of spreading love and kindness, are spreading hate and cruelty!

My oh my have I yoyo’d with my diet! Yes, my streak of being healthy normally lasts for a number of weeks, where I may have a cheat day or two. But when I break that streak, boy do I BREAK that streak. It could be a week of me eating pounded yam, lots of rice and sweets. Especially my guilty pleasure chocolate. Which does nothing good for my skin! I honestly feel like boredom mixed with eating my emotions is the cause of this. But we thank God, self-control is key and I constantly pray that God will bless me with this.

Let me be honest. I do always feel better in my quiet time and my conversations with God. I know that He is completely in control of this season. I know God does not cause us any harm but it sometimes feels weird to be in this. So many things happening in our world right now point to what the Bible describes as the end of time. Am I wrong? The virus, all the deaths, the hate among our own people. I do sometimes get overwhelmed but I am reminded in Isaiah 43:19 – Behold, I will do a new thing, Now it shall spring forth; Shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.

Let me know what your thoughts are, I would love to hear them!

Love Always,

Liz Fashanu

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